Not Just Another Random Rush

Right then and there, I know you would be special
Unintentional attraction grew in an instant
Staring is rude but you do it good
Somehow, your eyes gave me hope.

 
Danger of falling in love is the risk I took
Admiration grew stronger and stronger as I knew you more
Never have I thought that you will be so dear
I am more than thankful for what you've shared with me
Every time with you are some of the moments I treasure most
Life is what we make it so I made you my life.

 
Obvious is what I am
Letting you know in my own simple ways
I just hope you can feel that's genuine
Vying for your affection is never an easy thing
At least, I have the courage to give love another shot for it already failed me a thousand times.

 
Battling the norms, stereotyping and your self-acclaimed indifference is exhausting
All these I will endure just let me do my thing
Loving you is easy but at the same time, it's not
Doing this is my decision, so I'm to blame
Our friendship is what I truly care for
Zest for love is just a spice
And this will grow as long as we are friends.

Death

It's going to be my first post in my blog and it's already about death. Maybe you'll think I'm morbid or what. Let me just say this, You got it right! ahahaha

After I attended the Consultation Workshop for the BSSW Curriculum, I talked to Russ and Aibert. I told them that I don't want to DIE as a social worker because I don't want the idealistic side of me die as a practice my beloved profession. I would love to practice my profession as much as I love my ideals in life for these two are some of the greatest contributing factors of who I am. During the workshop, some of the participants who are practicing the profession for a long time now were saying that the curriculum should be globally competitive and change it to a point where the courses offered are recognized in the international setting. They were all so negative that the curriculum only fits to the Philippine demand. They made their point clear but that kind of curriculum may somehow influence the thinking of the students that after they graduate, they can just go out of the country and look for a greener pasture there. I guess what they failed to see is that maybe CHED made that curriculum that way so that while in the University, it would be inculcated into the minds of the student that they should first serve our country. It's our obligation to our government and to our motherland. After gaining access to a cheaper but quality education, I think it's just right to return the favor by serving our fellow countrymen. Maybe after years of experience and efforts of making a difference and touching lives that is the time that we take special courses where we want to specialize and go abroad.

Another death issue is when we went to Our Lady of Guadalupe Shrine located in Buraguis, Legazpi City. When we were on top of the hill where the huge Our Lady of Guadalupe figure is placed, we were talking about when we get sad and want to END OUR LIFE, we just have to go there are jump right off the cliff (clip according to Roxee. hahaha). Russ, being the righteous one, contradicted the idea for we were at that holy place and we should not talk about that because life is a gift. Yes, life is a gift but then again, being the morbid one, I quoted Sigmund Freud who said that THE GOAL OF ALL LIFE IS DEATH. I do believe him. We should not fear death; instead we should be prepared for it. If we see death as a goal in life, we will make sure that everything we want to do and we want to happen will be realized. There will be less regrets because we live our life to the fullest. DEATH IS BEAUTIFUL. It ends suffering to those who suffers. It gives hope to those who are in misery. It makes us express our love the people who are dear to us. It makes us appreciate each day that we are still alive. It leads us to a righteous life because death is also the beginning of an everlasting life. For without death, everything is just tiresome.

When Melvin, Russ and I were eating and talking at Jollibee Daraga about what is happening between North and South Korea and all their allied countries, silence of Russia, the calamities happening around the world, the prophecies and the letter of the three sisters, the movie 2012, another death issue came in. We were talking what if it is true that someday in 2012, the world would end? Actually, I'm terrified not of death but with how I will die. Maybe, we are not really afraid of death; what we are really afraid of is the timing and manner of dying. I, personally, would not want to die amidst the chaos of trying to survive a catastrophe. I just want to die calmly.

Death may bring sorrow to other people and ugly to some but it can't be denied that death is a great teacher. It makes us weak to realize how strong we can be. It makes us long for people who are not with us to teach us love, appreciation, kindness and gratitude. Death brings wisdom for it's a test of faith, courage and gratefulness. I will not fear death but I will take good care of my health because I don't want to invite it right away. I still have a life to live, Cornettos to enjoy, Tanduay Ice to drink, world to explore, clothes to design, people to help, Russ to love, God to praise, family to endear, friends to laugh with, foundation to start and most importantly, a job to find. :D